I haven’t posted anything new this year for a number of reasons. First of all, I’ve been busy with the family. updateOlivia is one now and let me tell you, a baby is time consuming. There was an initial struggle between me and Michelle about how much time I could and/or should possibly devote to waking up in the middle of the night but that’s mostly over now. It’s weird how you plan to raise a child in the modern era with progressive views on division of labor and then biology trumps all that. At least that’s what I argued to Michelle.

Secondly, I wish I had something exciting to say about work. The truth is I’m just doing the same thing I’ve been doing and I go to work every day just like everyone else. It’s not that I’ve given up my dream of doing something more fulfilling, like being a writer or something, it’s just that I have to be realistic and honestly I don’t think about it as much anymore. I guess I’m just happy with so much in my life that I don’t complain about not having some fantasy job. Seems a bit ungrateful.

Strangers continue to be a part of my life. Like I said last year, a lot of the people I see on a regular basis aren’t strangers anymore, but I still meet new people almost every day. It’s just who I am.

Some updates: Gunther got back together with Monica and they got married! That was a shocker. Scott is driving for Uber, so that is what it is. We moved to the Palisades, if anyone cares about that. We host a Halloween party every year and we’ll see a lot of the old gang and find out more then.

I guess the main reason I’ve been quiet on the blog is because life is more quiet now. I mean, it’s literally not quiet at all, but you know what I mean. I went back and read the whole blog again a couple months ago and while I’m still like, “Whoa, I can’t believe that happened to me,” I think for the first time I felt a tinge of embarrassment, like, “What a drama queen.”

I know the 20s are a turbulent time when you’re making some hard decisions about who you are and what you’re going to do with your life. And it’s also true that the last area of the brain to develop is that executive function/impulse control center. But looking back, it sure seems like my 20s were more like being a teenager than they’re like the way I am now. Okay, that wasn’t a good sentence, but you know what I mean. There’s a certain amount of serenity that comes from your brain being done growing, settling down and being happy with your choices, and just chilling the fuck out.

Sometimes I miss the drama. The surge of emotions and hormones that make life unpredictable and fun. I mean, it’s not like I’m ninety but I just feel like life is calmer now. Michelle has enough hormonal surges for both of us.

Anyway, that’s all I got. It’s a constant source of joy to see people still reading the blog and taking something away from it. Keep on talking to strangers!

–F (PP)